Monthly Archives: March 2010
It’s very interesting how things happen. I lost my job at E*Trade on Thursday after working there for almost 10 years. In a way I didn’t see it coming, but I’ve also known a change was coming since July 2009. I just didn’t know what it was. On Tuesday I felt like there was something just outside my field of vision that I couldn’t identify. Now I know what it was. It shocked a lot of people I worked with and I was amazed at how many people reached out to me. I really liked my job, but I loved the people I worked with. I have great friends at E*Trade, and I hope to be able to keep in touch with all of them. E*Trade gave me a great severance package based on my time served, so we have time to figure things out.
I bought a blue suit with my E*Trade bonus, because I only had a brown suit. I felt like I needed a good suit for weddings, funerals and job interviews. A few weeks ago I went to Neldon Walters’ funeral in American Fork. Wednesday I wore it to Logan’s sealing. That’s pretty much the same as a wedding. And soon I will wear it to a job interview. Maybe I shouldn’t have bought the suit? Yeah right. Things happen for a reason, and this is no different. I believe that my next job will be one that I wouldn’t be able to find while at E*Trade. I haven’t actively looked for a job in over three years, and I had no reason to look now. One thing I know for sure is that I’m not driving this car. I see more clearly now why recent events have happened the way they did. We just paid off most of our debt and bought the Mazda Protege’. I wanted to hold on to that money, but now we have a reliable commuter car. It’s exciting to see how things are being revealed. This doesn’t always happen for me, so I think there are important things that I am supposed to learn. I wrote things on my 2K10 card that I wanted to focus on, like slowing down, listening and breathing. I think now I will learn to do that. Everything is going to be fine.
I hate it when people have playlists on their blogs because I usually don’t like their music and it interferes with me listening to Pandora and checking out their blog at the same time. Tonight I make an exception. I had a few minutes so I checked out Shawn and Jill’s blog to see the pictures of their babies. This was the only song on Jill’s playlist, so I went to YouTube to see what I could find.
This is one of the most peaceful and beautiful songs I have ever heard. Part of it may have been the fact that I was seeing pictures of Sam and Charlotte at the same time, but it really touched my heart. It made me realize how much I miss Shawn and Jill, and how I hate missing out on seeing their kids grow up. We love and miss you guys. And I really want to go to Hawaii.